Instruct Me; Empower Me – Use it All Lord.

Today, was a check-in with my AHMAZING primary today…

I’ve had several medical practitioners in my almost 56 years on the planet and I have to say but some of the most attentive compassionate and thorough have been either a nurse practitioner or a physicians assistant.

It’s not that my surgeons and MDs haven’t been good – most of them have been amazing.

I can just count, with so much gratitude, these men and women that God has brought into my life – to help me in the roughest times – most of them have been with those designations (PA or FNP).

So, today, we addressed my back issues (new & worsening symptoms) down that left leg that was damaged with the TAP block (pre-colectomy), & the possibility of my back condition causing those new symptoms.

When you have chronic medical conditions, it’s easy to want to just hide under a blanket. I already struggle with mental health issues so adding more to my plate does not make me jump for joy.

But God has given me dreams and if it’s one thing I know about God, He is not a genie that answers every request, of my every human whim. But He is faithful to complete the work He’s begun in me – and you too, if you ask Him. His plans will come to pass.

He’s a loving father who knows more about me than I ever will. He knows what I need and when I need it.

His word tells me to keep my head where my feet are. Life is one day at a time, one moment at a time, accepting hardships as a pathway to peace (see the original, long version of the Serenity Prayer below).

I’m not crazy about my broken body but I know God is faithful and if He walks me down a path, there’s a good reason for it. It’s up to me to right my attitude & not hide under a blanket and say “why me?” but rather, “God what do you want me to do with this?” “What do you want to do in me and through me?”

Instruct me; empower me.

I’m not saying don’t ask God “why?” Of course it’s OK to ask God anything, but what I am saying is I can’t make camp there.

We can find the blessings & be a blessing even in the middle of our struggles. God makes all things possible and He so often uses the weak and least likely of us, to do His work here.

And I know I can trust Him 💯.

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